Twitter @SalvadorThePoet Heart full of pain, Tears rolling down my face while I walk through the thunder and rain, I've been chewed up, stepped on and spit out and somehow I manage to put on a smile on my face, But deep down I'm heart broken playing masquerades, Thought about putting a needle up my arm full off meth just to escape my pain, I was 18 years old when I started walking through these dark days, All I could do was pray, I hope God listens to me because I don't know how much longer I can take this pain, I feel like my head is under water and I'm drowning, I'm yelling for help but deep down I know no one is coming, I feel like I bump shoulders with Satan and now I'm suffering, Every other night I was crying, I'm surrounded by demons and I feel like I'm losing the fight, All alone with no one by my side, Left out in the rain just trying to survive, I'm tired of hearing all these lies, Heart full of pain that only leads to the tears in my eyes, Mental illness had me suicidal for a long time, If I would've had a pistol in my hand I would've pulled the trigger and ended my life, But I didn't do it because all I could see was the tears in my mother's eyes, So I kept on just fighting the good fight, So many people that struggle with mental illness commits suicide, I'm just one of the lucky ones that survive, But I did try to overdose on pills and cut my wrist once upon a time, This is a true story based on my life, Suicide letters all around me ill probably be dead by tonight,