So many emotions, no peace at all All these feelings have caused a commotion My emotions grew feet and they are so heavy they have put huge a dent into the ground I really thought I had found my future wife She turned out to be another life lesson Some may call it a blessing If they felt what I felt right now They'd sing another song I'm tired of hurting that's all I've done for months I'm trying to heal but my mind won't stay still Revisting my lowest moments Who needs enemies when your mind does nothing but torment you Everyone around me pretends like I'm choosing to feel this way I don't want pitty , right now I can't help that I feel shitty My smile has went missing My mental heath barely hanging on like a thinning dread Every task is exhausting My energy is depleted and I feel defeated My heart has gotten crushed like it went through a compactor Anxiety and depression has grown fist I feel their constant hits I'm tired of ducking, shots are landed with precision I'm fighting myself mad at the world Trying to hang on my grip is loosening Living with regrets protecting my heart from hatred Let the love continue to occupy my heart I don't want to change for the worse I want to be better I swear I'm trying to heal

It has to be you Don't want no one new Hope should be gone It seems like we're through My heart holds onto you My mind tells me to let you go It's easier said than done I wasn't done loving you I'm not trying to guilt trip you I'm not trying to hold you hostage If I could help how I felt I'd change it instantly Have you ever yearned before ? No lust involved in the recipe Just pure love In its raw form My heart beats full speed There's no breaks This feeling is constant It even follows me in my dreams There's no relief it's exhausting

I lost my spark , I'm stuck in the dark Its hard to maneuver I can barely see I just want to be free Unfortunately all this pain is chained to me I miss her,  I miss the way I was when I was with her Never wanted to say goodbye I was so adamant she was the one I'm so mad at the world I've pushed away so many helping hands and chose to isolate myself instead My misery doesn't love company Bare with me everyone I'm suffering from withdrawals from no longer being in her presence Everything was going smooth and then the devil came and spoiled everything I'm afraid my heart will be forever changed If she doesn't return Why did I have to lose the person most precious to me , never took her for granted I knew she was a gift from the first times our eyes met This time last year I was on top of the world Hugged up every night with the women of my dreams Fast forward to now I eat once a day I cry myself to sleep every night I'm living a nightmare ,there's no relief