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are you alone? because im not alone im not alone loneliness is a choice a choice that i chose carefully & wisely im not alone i chose to lock myself up in the room to throw the key away to swallow this pill to not scream when i heard them coming to keep my mouth closed to tape it shut to tie my hands together and to entertain this chain thats holding up my weight i decided to not call myself and to not check up on me see all that was my decision i chose not to take those signs seriously i chose that- me not you or you or him but me i wanted to get thrown into that truck and to be touched that way i cried purposely i knew what i was doing i chose that me not you or you or him but me we i she us the two of us i did that i did this he told me that i didnt have to but i wanted to it was my decision i did that i held my legs opened as i screamed i did that i CHOSE that- me not you or you or him but me but how come you never checked on me how come you didnt answer my silent calls you kept picking up your phone but none of the times was for me you never asked me how i was you never asked me how i felt you never asked me if i was lonely how i was doing you chose that- you not me not we or him but you you you never called me you chose that- you

i killed myself last night and Hell isnt really what i expected the devil isnt here i was told he is wandering earth trying to find some more kids people rejected his throne remains cold which is odd because its suppose to hot down here nothing really but lost souls all young, and old God why is it so cold down here? she told me Hell finally froze over

Oh Lord, answer my prayer! Why should I suffer, I ain't aware? What's in store, I know not, 'cause all that I had is lost! Do what you will, the Almighty you're, And get me back all that I lost, thus far! Asked HE, in HIS voice, gentle and mild: What do you think you've lost, my child? Oh, many a thing, and countless, my Lord, Nor could I keep any record! List a few, can't you, without a cry? Uttered HE, assuring, only sooner HE'd try! Never-ending, I should say, is the list, Will these suffice, if I go on, as the gist? Times changed, my Lord, I lost my youth, And so did the customs, to take away my beauty, that's the truth! And what the world calls it ageing, Oh, it's only too discouraging! When I say, I lost my health, Isn't it as well all our wealth ? Don't ask me any more of the past Can't you retrieve, all that I'd lost? With a beaming smile HE overrode: Don't you recollect all that I bestowed? Gave you good education, made you literate, To rid of Ignorance, can't I state? With the hardwork you put in to count, It's the poverty, that you could surmount! And with all your kith and kin around How could loneliness dare surround? Your good virtue and trait brought no foes, Take no fright, my child, to expect any woes! Thus, I can cite plenty and more, It isn't just like twenty to score! Shall I get you back all these? If they are enough to please! There is so much in life, I never thought, And why should I feel distraught? No more I seek, for you to give, I only beseech you to forgive! You've showered your grace in abundance, Can't show my face, I'm a dunce! I prostrated, to touch HIS feet, Only to find HE'd vanished, leaving the Life's Balance Sheet!! ……………. N Rangamani