It has to be you Don't want no one new Hope should be gone It seems like we're through My heart holds onto you My mind tells me to let you go It's easier said than done I wasn't done loving you I'm not trying to guilt trip you I'm not trying to hold you hostage If I could help how I felt I'd change it instantly Have you ever yearned before ? No lust involved in the recipe Just pure love In its raw form My heart beats full speed There's no breaks This feeling is constant It even follows me in my dreams There's no relief it's exhausting

I lost my spark , I'm stuck in the dark Its hard to maneuver I can barely see I just want to be free Unfortunately all this pain is chained to me I miss her,  I miss the way I was when I was with her Never wanted to say goodbye I was so adamant she was the one I'm so mad at the world I've pushed away so many helping hands and chose to isolate myself instead My misery doesn't love company Bare with me everyone I'm suffering from withdrawals from no longer being in her presence Everything was going smooth and then the devil came and spoiled everything I'm afraid my heart will be forever changed If she doesn't return Why did I have to lose the person most precious to me , never took her for granted I knew she was a gift from the first times our eyes met This time last year I was on top of the world Hugged up every night with the women of my dreams Fast forward to now I eat once a day I cry myself to sleep every night I'm living a nightmare ,there's no relief 

My mind has  been playing point guard in my life lately Controlling the offense and dictating the entire flow of everything involving me It Feels like I'm having an out of body experience Someone else picked up the controller I'm no longer in control,  I'm just a tool Waiting to be use In whatever way my mind sees fit I'm self destructing at a rapid pace I look down to search for the breaks And they have disappeared This crash feels inevitable It's incredible how powerful the mind is I wonder why mine decides to torment me I've been rewinding painful memories on loop for days now I gain back control for a second just to fall back into the trap I'm exhausted all the time so I take naps to avoid reality Flicking through channels of emotions Trying to remain calm , the antidepressants just don't feel strong enough And My prayers just don't feel heard enough ......