So many emotions, no peace at all
All these feelings have caused a commotion
My emotions grew feet and they are so heavy they have put huge a dent into the ground
I really thought I had found my future wife
She turned out to be another life lesson
Some may call it a blessing
If they felt what I felt right now
They'd sing another song
I'm tired of hurting that's all I've done for months
I'm trying to heal but my mind won't stay still
Revisting my lowest moments
Who needs enemies when your mind does nothing but torment you
Everyone around me pretends like I'm choosing to feel this way
I don't want pitty , right now I can't help that I feel shitty
My smile has went missing
My mental heath barely hanging on like a thinning dread
Every task is exhausting
My energy is depleted and I feel defeated
My heart has gotten crushed like it went through a compactor
Anxiety and depression has grown fist
I feel their constant hits
I'm tired of ducking, shots are landed with precision
I'm fighting myself
mad at the world
Trying to hang on
my grip is loosening
Living with regrets
protecting my heart from hatred
Let the love continue to occupy my heart
I don't want to change for the worse
I want to be better I swear
I'm trying to heal