At some point you get tired of praying
You get tired of asking for healing
Asking for spiritual growth
Asking for happiness when all you seem to equate to is depression
It’s as if all the happy factors are there but they can’t seem to multiply
It’s like driving straight but inevitably going in a circle
You feel stuck
Is there anyone listening
God are you there
Sometimes you get so jumbled you can’t even scramble the pieces back to make you whole again
Some just don’t fit anymore
It’s like your growing by a grain of sand but it’s not enough to stop the demons from attacking
You build a sand wall but it’s too close to the water
You build a boat to keep you dry but like the titanic the iceberg hit
You try to escape but you drown in disbelief that you’ve hit rock bottom once again and-
we’re here again
Praying and praying
But is anyone listening
Is my flesh blocking the sound of my soul
I can feel the rumble within my bones
Please-
Please free me from these shackles
I’m tired of being a prisoner of my own mind yet roommates with my happiness
I’m tired
It’s sitting right in front of me
But I can’t seem to get a touch
I don’t know what to do ‘cause nothing’s ever enough
Are you listening?
Then again
I pray and I pray and I pray
That today will be the day
That someone is listening
-Ayrriel 18’
Sure does !
A good piece! I really like the line, "Is my flesh blocking the sound of my soul?" Certainly seems like that sometimes, doesn't it?
Dear Readers,
I am currently battling depression. Sometimes I feel like I’m taking every step towards fighting it, but it seems like I’m going in a circle. I know many people have or are dealing with their own depression and I’d like to know some pointers on how to get out of this hole. If you guys have any pointers or want to share your stories please do so.
-Ayrriel
Thank you !