My mind has been playing point guard in my life lately
Controlling the offense and dictating the entire flow of everything involving me
It Feels like I'm having an out of body experience
Someone else picked up the controller
I'm no longer in control, I'm just a tool
Waiting to be use In whatever way my mind sees fit
I'm self destructing at a rapid pace
I look down to search for the breaks
And they have disappeared
This crash feels inevitable
It's incredible how powerful the mind is
I wonder why mine decides to torment me
I've been rewinding painful memories on loop for days now
I gain back control for a second just to fall back into the trap
I'm exhausted all the time so I take naps to avoid reality
Flicking through channels of emotions
Trying to remain calm , the antidepressants just don't feel strong enough
And My prayers just don't feel heard enough ......