Scared unsure what comes next all these thoughts remain in my head. Letting go of my past comes back from time and again. Still I blame myself for what was done. I'm singing my swan song. I know if I let him in I'll get hurt again. Someone new I want to trust. Not a risk to live. All these questions taken in. Now I believe to be on track, the sounds of the train from inside come back rolling along my heart beats so fast, trying to catch my breath. After all this man saved my life. He's my spirit guide feeling as if he's always been a part of my life. Here I am singing my swan song. I'm gonna live it's how it's going to be although it's just me. This is what scares me the most being alone. Maybe one day my swan song will come to an end.