Dear Mama Dear mama; I’ve seen days filled with gray skies and I’ve had sunshine a time or two. What I’ve learned through what you taught me is to cherish every day that ‘s been add to you. Dear mama; as a child I’ve cried many tears over that rolling stone and even now he has not found a way to make it back home. But, you were wrong…you made our house a home. Dear mama; I’ve learned to listen before I speak, monitor the knowledge that I tech and when I can’t do anything else I have learned to hold my peace. Dear mama; I look at you so different now than when I was a kid, back then I didn’t really see how strong you were to provide for me the way you did. Being a parent myself I see it takes a lot more than the purchase of material things, it takes a real parent to look past a want and fulfill your child’s need. But most importantly I appreciate the knowledge you sowed in me. Now I bar the fruits of your labor and sow seeds from your wisdom tree. I hope my life reflects all you wanted me to be and I pray I made you proud and even though you’re gone your words are still as loud. I know heaven is excited to have you back among the saints. I love you mama and please save me a place.

Who am I  Who am I to talk about someone when they are not around? And who am I to feel important by putting someone else down? Who am I to produce lies to satisfy my selfish pride? And who am I to set in the seat of judgment and point out others sin?  And who am I to stand in the way of other’s being blessed because my blessing have come to an end? Who am I to only my desires and the way I want things to be? And who am I to deny the one who created me?  I am nothing without GOD who carries me through life WHO AM I? I’m just a believer who is trying to get it right. WHO AM I

Without You With out you… there would never be a blue sky in my life on skies of gray. Without you… I would never have a reason to raise my head to notice the sky anyway. Without you… all I would know is the sad songs in my heart…song of the blues. Without you… I could find no trace of love because where my heart dwells there would be no you. Without you… loneliness would become my friend and I would drown day by day in my depression. Without you… there would be no easy roads in life for me, just a lot of dark roads filled with hard lessons. Without you… my life would be simply incomplete a world based on what if but I am glad god saw fit for me to deserve a life with your love. I’m glad I’m not With You

Under The Influence Of Fools I’m punch drunk from stupidity. Hangover from too much ignorance, comatose from second hand dumbness, in recovery from shots of senseless. It all started when I decided I would take a sip from the cup of unwise. It tasted great at first but after a few more drinks the potency begin to cross my eyes I tried to put the cup down but for some reason it would not leave my hand so I took a seat to gather my thought then I realized I had no thoughts in my head. There were no ideas, no understanding, no reasoning of any type, I panic for a moment then forget why I was afraid because I had no recognition of what was wrong or what was right. I tried to focus on the people around me to get some answers for my state of mind but they were as out of it as I was because of the conversation I would find. The only thing that was clear was it was time to vacate this place, so I called the only person who could talk to sense in to me and they said I am on my way. When they got there they handed me a bottle and it said take two and you will be just fine. I read the label on the bottle and it read here is a piece of mind. Ever since that day I have adopted this one important rule, the choices of life are out there but it is up to you to choose. You can choose to be wise or you can choose to stay under the influence of a fool

Married To A Bad Situation Oh here I go again. I walk to the front door struggling to put my key in. I almost turn and get in my vehicle when I think of the conversation I am about to have. The complaining, the yelling and throwing things are getting old, but you are my better half. We have been married for 12 years, ever since I lefty my and kids and I have not had a smile on my face since. They would be me to leave you alone but I wouldn’t listen…no not in the least bit. So now I am married to my problems and the only satisfaction is that you are a giver and the keeper of my secrets and don’t ever judge me for my action. I empty you then I pour myself in after a few hours of this the complaining and yelling begins. I know there is a better way; I know there is an exit from the self-destruction station. But, as I turn the key and I step inside and grab you off the table I realize more and more each day I am married to a bad situation.

Who I Cling To When I was lost to my desires and a slave to my thoughts, God has a purpose for me no matter how hard I fought. It was his will for me to be greater than I could have ever dreamed, not for bragging rights but to help people to be redeemed. But as with Adam, God knew it was not good for me to be alone, so he created a woman that would make me complete, a helpmate to call my own. But to get to heavenly bliss I had to weather hailstorms, and when I found her it was my pleasure to protect her from all harm. She will know my thoughts, my emotions, and my pains. She will be my shelter to hide me from the rain. She will be my voice of reasoning when I find myself confused, she is the protector of my heart, she handles it with care so it won’t get bruised. There is only one that can be the completion of my life, my rib, my shelter, and my hearts protector, this is my wife. Who knows me better than I know myself and she is by my side through it all when I can’t find no one else. She makes loving her a privilege and I do it with ease. She is the motivation for my giving; she is the very air that I breathe. And what we share together is more precious to me than I could every put into words. She is the one I will grow old with, the love of my life, the reason I know my prayers God heard.

Has Anyone Seen My Child Has anyone seen my child? I have been searching for her for a while. I haven’t been able to move past the summer of ’78. We were on summer vacation and in search of rest and relaxation but instead I received a broken heart that constantly stays aching. I’m 65 now and I’m still looking for my child even though time has constantly reminded me of her fate. But only if I can just see her again even just a passing glimpse I know it would eliminate the hate. I know she wouldn’t look the same because so much between us has changed, but no matter how long it has been that’s still my child…so if anyone out there has any information about the summer of ’78 please contact me so I can give this old heart some relief, finally bury this grief, and replace it with some faith. Has any one seen my child?

I Will Never Chase Your Words With My Heart Again You finally broke it all the way, and this time beyond repair. One too many lies, one too many I don’t care. You watched me cry and still you showed no compassion for me in your heart, then you would demand forgiveness for arguments that you said I would start. You think you have me wrapped around your finger like some silly string, but really the only thing of me you have is the unhappy memories from our wedding ring. My heart has already left this relationship a long time ago, there is no more room init for your lies and yours of I’ll change to me are like fading echoes. So the only thing to do is what I should have done for a few years now, pack my things and follow my heart and maybe love will be out there for me somehow. So today this I’m writing is addressed only to you, I will never chase your words with heart again, because your lies don’t outweigh the tears in my eyes and the fact that we are through.

In the tapestry of our shared journey, gratitude seems a humble word, a mere whisper in the symphony of emotions that swell within me. Enveloped in love's embrace, I find myself immersed, buoyed by the steadfastness you embody against life's relentless tug. Together, we've scaled emotional peaks and traversed through the shadowed valleys of financial strain. Yet, through every season, your presence has been my constant, an unwavering beacon by my side. For the love you've bestowed upon me, I am not merely grateful; I am indebted, forever tethered to the depths of your affection. Your love, a testament to truth, deemed divine by the very hand of God, resonates with an undeniable unity that echoes through our souls. Thus, eternally indebted I remain, for the goodness of your love knows no bounds, illuminating the path we tread together.

In the cycle of voids, where growth finds no hold, In shadows where whispers of knowledge unfold, Amid circles of zeros, where no light may gleam, Existence feels barren, a faint, fading dream. In circles of zeros, where stature shrinks small, Reflections of emptiness echo their call. Lost in the labyrinth, where confusion reigns true, In circles of zeros, you're used and subdued. Seek beyond shadows, where new pathways gleam, Where light and growth dance, like stars in a dream. Break from the circles, find paths that inspire, In the realm of possibilities, let your soul aspire.

In the glow of candlelight, your smile so bright, A celebration of you, my heart takes flight. With each passing year, our love does grow, Happy birthday, my wife, my love's gentle flow. Your laughter, a melody, sweet and true, In the dance of time, it's always you. Together we've journeyed, hand in hand, Through life's twists and turns, a love so grand. On this special day, let joy unfold, A tapestry of memories, precious and gold. May your dreams flourish, like flowers in spring, Happy birthday, my love, to you, I sing. With each heartbeat, my love for you swells, In the symphony of life, your presence excels. So here's to you, my love, on this day so divine, Happy birthday, forever, you'll be mine.