Don't aim generalized statements  at me  Specify your experience and learn to forgive  Do yourself a favor and please seek healing  Don't switch  roles from victim to villain  That's miles away from your true character  You only get one life remain yourself  Don't give into bitterness , keep your heart genuine  Doing the right thing doesn't always feel right  It may feel like you are losing  Clutch your morals and hold them close  Don't stoop to the levels of hell raisers  I'm not perfect sometimes I fall short  I aim to be Christ like , but if you test my pen  I turn into the devil himself ..... People provoke me on the daily  9 times out of 10 maintain my composure  The 1 time out of 10 I entertain the ignorance  I try my best to make it count , feel my wrath  Read my words and wrap your mind in a trap  I'm up to bat and I'm not  taking any  pitches  I'm going to keep swinging Every strike will land , I'd be an incredible boxer  I'm not one dimensional like the rest  I'm way too versatile , I'm way too real  You have to rehearse your whole personality  While looking into a mirror I'm already  well aware of the man in the mirror  My vision couldn't be any clearer if I used windex  Don't go around pretending to be Mr.Perfect  Life will confront you and give you a suplex ......

I position myself as a friend  Why do you see me as a threat ? I'd never take from you and smile in your face  I don't break up happy homes  I honor the love that's housed inside them  I root for you just like I root for everyone else  Can I please go a day without my name in the rumor mills ? I hate attention , I pass it to a teammate like John Stockton  I don't entertain the jazz , I press pause on the music  The more I try to avoid drama  The more it winds up on my doorstep  Wrong address I'm returning it back to the sender  My name is always said when I'm not around  Behind my back just like the back of a jersey  You may have heard of me  But you don't really know me  If I ever decided to appraise my words it would be worth more than gold  and even still I wouldn't let it be sold ...

The demands keep coming from up high  Nothing is given back  in return  Trying to do more with less  No wonder why we are so stressed  Punch out for the day and go home  Now I'm stretched out on my bed  Shuffling through many thoughts in my head  Trying to find out how to get more bread  So I can make my way towards stability  Plant my flag and celebrate future success  Tired of sitting still like a rock  Staying stationary kills potential  I'm chasing after fulfilment  And  haven't found it yet , feels like I'm playing hide and seek  I've never been good at catching a running target  Dodging fear and seeking growth  Trying to keep the hunger alive  And avoid being provoked   When I get my shot I won't choke  I've waited too long to go to the back of the line  Just having the thought that you want to do better is a sign that you can do better  I see the vision no matter who else is blind to it

Quit using your insecurities as a blanket  Getting wrapped up in  your mind  You keep embracing the idea that something is going on  Why do you treat the truth like a fable ? I cannot tell a lie I'm honest Abe  Obviously the message isn't linking to your brain  I have zero appetite for drama  My presence can cause a thunder  storm to hush  Don't jump into conclusions  The true  conflict is within yourself  Allow yourself time to resolve that

We're so still relatively new to each other  This is exciting I'm definitely feeling the heat  of a flame  No gust of wind could end this  My intent is genuine , you peak my interest  To be quite honest I was afraid to put myself out there I came across you and you don't make me so feel uneasy  This might just be infatuation for now  But I feel it will blossom into love  I'll look back on our beginning  And never regret a single thing

I had hope and it all went up in smoke  We clicked like seatbelts  do- re- Mi -fa -so -la- ti  We could have had made music  I go through the introduction phase  I become infatuated and then  We go our separate ways  Am I stuck on repeat ? Who pressed the button? I'm searching for connection  And I'm feeling lost  I can't reconnect with past flings  And I can't seem to find a new thing  Love only feels obtainable during my dreams  I want love , love doesn't want me  I want her , she doesn't want me  Rejection is a recurring theme in my story

My personal hell is having to explain myself Doesn't matter what it is  I just want to say what I said  And then that's final , what else is there to discuss ? Life of a enigma, I don't need a co-sign Gang up on me like it's an initiation I won't conform to your way of thinking I treat opinions like pennies  I acknowledge their existence But I'll never bend down to pick them up  I'll keep on walking past enjoying my day  Don't get me wrong I'm not a know it all  If I have questions I'll ask you  I'll treat you like google  Search for the answers only if They lead me down the right path  Not saying I'm gullible but I've been tricked a few times  I don't always hit the bullseye Sometimes I fail and I resist the urge to mope  Wash the doubt out of my mind like I'm using soap  I'm surrounded by misery  Yet I still choose hope ....

I'm returning to my roots  I'm keeping my work hush hush  The era of sharing is on pause  Im focusing on   refining  my skills  I've been at this for years  And I'm still relatively unknown  Maybe some day I can become the peoples champ and showcase my gift of gab  My pen has an  efficient jab like Ali  My words   float like butterflies My metaphors sting like bees I haven't hit my peak yet  This isn't even the best version of me  There's always going to be another level  I can ascend to , I'm never satisfied  You have become witness to complancey homicide ...... I'm going to expand my ocean wide mind  Until it leads to me living ocean side  Surrounded by nothing but peace and quiet  I dreamed a million dreams about this  I have to make this become a reality  There's no chance of any 9-5 suppressing my hunger , I'm a picky eater and a even pickier dreamer  I'm stubborn as hell I rarely listen  I'm counting the eggs before they hatch I know there's more coming Before it even happens  No end in sight I'm just switching up the method  I'm so versatile I might changed my name to plethora .... I'm going to keep  this production up for the rest of my life

This situation is broken beyond repair  Why I do waste my time picking up the hammer  The nails won't set in place for long  My hard work will be gone , no evidence of my effort It's inevitable this chapter must end  I've prolonged it enough , holding out hope  The guilt of wanted some new is eating me alive  I have to remind myself I'm allowed to want better  Sitting still watching everyone else  move  I'm like a rock ,I'm stagnant  Being reliable is the trap I fell into  I've become taken for granted  I receive laughs when I speak on leaving here  They don't see me advancing past this level  It doesn't hurt me but it does irk me  I haven't hit my peak , just wait and see

My mind's has been tied up in knots  Way before I learned how to tie up my shoes  These issues caused a landfill worth of tissues  I'm still learning how to navigate this landscape There's no safe place for a man to be vulnerable I had to build this all myself  Most men like to pretend they are bulletproof Well I'm not , I feel my pain plus yours im getting double teamed by emotion it's a relentless pursuit I can't afford to stop for rest or I may lose control I have to thrive , I have crashed enough  I've quit enough I'm not giving up

I'm not perfect yet , I chase after it Even though I know it's  pointless I always try to right my wrongs And then write my wrongs again  Just so my conscious can let me live in peace Peace is more  precious than  currency to me

My peers seemed obsessed with Trying to find out what makes me tick Like I'm the bomb, no one takes me serious I get treated like a satire Sometimes I feel l I need to retire the good guy character And try something different maybe I should embrace being the villain Bad guys always seem to win They break all the rules and suffer no consequences It feels like having morals is holding me back Should I set them aside so the dark side can arrive ? Give the people what they want Everyone's been begging for it Like their most desired Christmas gift Who am I to deny them any longer I'll take this positive image And let these hungry vultures feast Until nothing remains How's that for a character change ?

Why is it so hard for me to make a decision? I'm so thorough with the thought process Just to overthink everything and end up doing nothing Is it fear ? Is it the unknown? It's never just A or B for me I always end up thinking C is the right answer until I'm introduced to D I'm never spontaneous I'm mostly methodical Trying to bring my racing mind To a screeching halt I have to be careful when opening the vault I never know what might Try to make an escape

I like her smile , I like her personality I like her laugh , I like the way she listens  Only green flags are popping up not a single red flag  in sight  For some reason that makes my ears perk up  Is she too good to be true ? Or is this really who she is ? My past trust issues have came to play  Like it's time for recess  I'm so used to everything going wrong  I don't know how to behave when something works out for me  In my experience it's only a matter of time  Before something goes wrong  I have the luck of a cowboys fan  No such thing as a sure thing  High hopes rise until the inevitable downfall  And then we start the process all over again  If I had a second to grab the pen to write the next chapter of my life , I'd make it official that this time she will be the one for me  It's so exhausting to search and search some more just to end up regretting what you have found

In my dreams I crush all the competition When I awaken I defeat myself before I cross the finish line , my mind is a beast My hopes and my dreams are treated like a feast I wonder how many times I've snatched my own opportunities away Self sabotage is a variant of fear And the cause for the majority of my tears It's always hard to accept the blame When the blame belongs to you You may want to deflect it to others But you will know that wouldn't be fair to the truth

With a pen in my hand I showcase the diction to make you listen , to make you feel something inside when you thought you were empty make your eyes flip in multiple directions like Kurt angle doing a suplex I'm not a bottom dwellerI, I'm at the apex When it comes to shining I got next I'm still learning to accept the praise Im still learning to transition my confidence From part time to full time Whether you give me my props or not I'm still going to make a play on words i can't help it if I wanted to i wouldn't help it even if I could No one speaks my language I expect to be misunderstood

I'm a creature of habit When it comes to alone time I just got to have it I rarely break the routine it's comfortable I have a surplus of friends But I barely go out because anxiety told me no My mind decided to co-sign just in case I'm thinking of trying to escape I lay in my room ,I'm a living mummy My bed is my tomb , I feel stuck On one hand I feel like I'm missing out On the other hand I feel like outside is over hyped I'm a hermit nowadays, I used to be the sun's best friend and now we barely see one another . How did our friendship falter ?

Slow down let's get acquainted better Before you start pursuing my heart I have a speed limit please do not exceed it you won't end up with a ticket But I may just search for the nearest exit don't apply too much pressure to me I'm still nursing a wound from years ago I've walked alone for awhile now It's hard picturing someone walking beside me I've sat on the shelf too long Solitude has become my home It's rare that I roam in search of adventure Entertaining the flame of love Been burnt so many times My heart has turned crispy Are you really that into me ?

infatuation masquerades as love how will I ever know if this is the real thing people show you one side of themselves and wait until you least expect it to reveal the other I've been hoodwinked many times tears stained my pillow case while my brain pleads its case to my heart and begs for its forgiveness for all the avoidable pain I put it through all because I was blinded by beauty

There are millions of faces One is in the mirror Thousands I've met in my life time Hundreds could be classified as associates A handful of close friends Some faces I know Some faces are strangers Some faces I want to forget